The shores of Lost Lagoon
in Vancouver’s Stanley Park
shimmer as water rises and falls
along the sandy banks.
I step off the beaten path
to get a closer look
at a pair of wigeons drifting by.

In a willow overhead
I spy a tiny ball of energy,
a highly caffeinated bird
flitting from branch to branch.
Dusky grey,
the Bushtit is a social creature,
calling companions to join
a sweet high-ptiched chorus.

As my eyes travel up the tree,
a flurry of motion
animates the branches.
Responding to the call,
two dozen Bushtits
now dance among the leaves.

Swept into the company,
I can imagine myself Da Vinci,
designing wings to take flight.

Just as quickly as the flock
descended overhead,
they scatter to trees across the wood,
snapping the spell,
returning me to the ordinary.

Eight months later,
I still return to that summer day,
held in place by wonder,
afraid to breathe
for fear
I will burst the bubble
of acceptance.

*inspired by James Wright’s poem, “A Blessing”.

The predawn quiet at the edge of the woods
broken by the eight-note hoot
a barred owl resting on a pine bough
and the sweet, bright song of a Carolina wren.

Broken by the eight-note hoot
singing sparrows join the dawn chorus
and the sweet, bright song of a Carolina wren
pileated woodpeckers bang insistently above.

Singing sparrows join the dawn chorus
and to my left three deer tramp by
pileated woodpeckers bang insistently above
through the dry winter brush.

And to my left three deer tramp by
a barred owl resting on a pine bough
through the dry winter brush
the predawn quiet at the edge of the woods.


*This poem is a Pantoum, a Malaysian form with four line stanzas and a clear repeat pattern designed to create a musical circular effect. The poem is built with eight lines. My poem focuses on my morning sounds as I spend more time outdoors. The pattern is as follows: 1,2,3,4. 2,5,4,6. 5,7,6,8. 7,3,8,1. (For another example and the inspiration for my poem, check out Padraig O’Tuama’s New Year’s pantoum here.)

Imagine
we begin each day,
each encounter,
each interaction
with a treaty.

Conversations might
dance more directly
toward our humanity.
“I acknowledge
you deserve space to speak.”
“I acknowledge
you can teach me.”
“I acknowledge
our worth is equal.”
I acknowledge
I do not have all the answers.”

Our encounter with nature
would begin
“I acknowledge
I am a visitor here.”
“I acknowledge
I have no right to traple or displace
homes of animals, birds, insects.”
“I acknowledge
I may enjoy the abundance
only as one of millions of creatures.”
“I acknowledge
I have no governance over the land’s resources.”

To neighbors and strangers,
“I acknowledge
we are all just passing through.”
“I acknowledge
I must treat each person as a fellow traveler.”

Imagine.



*A poem in response to “Kulila” by Ali Cabby

There is a fine line
between play fighting
and fist fighting.
Two eighth grade boys
poke and prod each other,
occasionally throwing barbs —
all in fun they say.

Until one note strikes
too close to the bone.
A brotherly hug
becomes a head lock,
words are spiked —
pointy enough to wound.

With feelings laid bare,
the boys find the road back
impossible to see,
the path ahead
rocky, protracted.

Fast forward thirty years,
the two boys
reside in places of power.
Long buried anger smolders
beneath polished smiles.
Now
this boyhood hurt
plays out on a world stage.

If we wonder
why conflict
is so entrenched,
we must remember
how fragile the soul is
along the way.

In the morning,
Mrs. McArdle explained how to
walk peacefully through the forest,
how to find a welcoming spot
in the crowded lunchroom,
how to turn off your internal critic
when writing.

At recess,
Mrs. McArdle revealed
how to never feel lonely
when spending time alone.

After lunch,
Mrs. McArdle gave us
a worksheet on how to
gather friends
when you are the new kid.

In the afternoon,
Mrs. McArdle led a discussion
on how to access
your favorite life moments
just by closing your eyes.

The English lesson covered
how to draft a life plan
in three easy steps,
with no missteps.

The math lesson
was the best of all —
how to make your
messy life
add up
to a satisfying journey.


*modeled on Brad Aaron Modlin’s brilliant, “What You Missed That Day You Were Absent From Fourth Grade“.

America is a country at war,
not the “buy savings bonds”
“plant a victory garden” type of war,
but a war against
its own people.
Ordinary citizens
are jailed,
deported
for the color of their skin,
mothers are torn from children,
the hungry are left starving,
the sick without healthcare.
Only the wealthy
can live unaffected.
Hints of Germany in the 1930’s
salt the air
Honestly,
no one is safe.
Eventually,
one’s heritage,
blood type,
height,
religious affilation,
sports allegiance
or hometown
will be a marker
for destruction.
There is no rhyme
to the isolation.
America is at war.

*inspiration: We Lived Happily During the War” poem by Ilya Kaminsky

As a child,
I thought parenting was
finger painting,
peanut butter sandwiches,
bedtime stories.

As a teen,
I thought parenting was
curfews,
Thanksgiving dinner,
driving lessons.

As a new mother
I thought parenting was
wonder,
fear,
connection.

Sitting with my 91 year old father,
I realize parenting is
a road through the forest —
beauty, peace, adventure
married with
doubt, waywardness, loss.

A road
I would traverse
again and again
with love.

inspired by Carlos Andres Gomez’s “Father”.

When I was fifteen
adults seemed to lose their shine.
I saw cracks
in relationships,
flaws in their arguments.
I was sure
I could see things more clearly.
Were they losing their edge?
Were we teens just outpacing them?
Our answers so logical.

Age is a funny thing.
Life teaches us
over and over again
how little we understand
about others,
the universe.

Now,
I am less sure.
I wonder about the path forward regularly.
Waking each morning,
I can formulate
a whole new set of questions,
opening doors
to untraveled paths.
What a bore
is certitude.

Written along side of Yehuda Amichai’s “The Place Where We are Right”.

Regret
can be its own kind of prison.
Words spoken,
promises broken,
friendships untended,
paths not taken,
choices made,
lives not lived,
talents disregarded,
courage lacking…
while there may be
validity
in these reminiscences,
the weight is crushing
possibilities
for here and now.

*title borrowed from Natalie Diaz’s “Of Course She Looked Back”

Last night
my son’s dog came to stay.
Cooper is a frequent guest —
respectful, kind, friendly.
His half siblings,
our two dogs,
have varying opinions.
Max, a year older,
but smaller than Cooper,
loves having a new playmate.
Upon arrival,
Cooper and Max
circle with wagging tails,
long lost companions.
Georgia, on the other hand,
enjoys ruling the roost,
mastering the quiet,
setting the pace.
She will tolerate Cooper
next to her on the couch,
but
he had better let her lead the way on walks,
head out the door first.
This morning
the three dogs
lounge in bright sunbeams
on the colorful rug.
A truce
I hope will hold
for the week.