When I was young, I created worlds from acorn tops, bits of moss, flower petals and pine boughs gathered on walks in the woods with my grandmother.
I imagined mice and wee nuthatches visiting beneath towering tulips.
Just this morning, I picked up a plump pine cone, the color of Sierra Redwoods, to add to a montage growing on the fireplace mantle. A piece of driftwood and two small grape hyacinths add color, texture to the arrangement, just waiting for the mice friends of my youth.
While visiting my grandmother at age seven, my father and I wandered onto the large Santa Monica Pier in the late afternoon.
A small store half way down the pier offered cases full of tiny handblown glass animals.
Rays of sunlight glinted, turning the room into a kaleidoscope unlike anything my young eyes had ever seen. I begged for one or two treasures.
Back home, I carefully packed the unicorn, elephant and tiny giraffe in cotton, then tissue paper before loading them gently into my small backpack.
The hardtop playground at my elementary school was a sea of inky black asphalt, dark and unforgiving.
As an adult, I can look back knowing Tommy D. had no ill intent when he grabbed for the gentle giraffe. But, the result was the same… shards of glistening glass studded the blacktop like diamonds in the rough.
Across the street a new set of brightly painted swings beckons.
For the young, swings are a chance to soar high above the everyday.
For teens, swings are a spot to meet at dusk, dragging feet in the dirt while talking about anything, everything. Twisting the chains in slow circles, before unwinding to start again.
For adults, swings are nostalgia. It is as an adult we realize swings are so much more than swings.
*I read the novella Kitchen by Banana Yoshimoto. This story of belonging, loss and love reminds me to consider my spaces.
Light floods in from the large window over the kitchen sink. A deep, white porcelain, the sink anchors this kitchen.
Water fills pots, feeds plants, cleanses the day.
A pale celery green coats the walls, tall, white cabinets store matched dishes, assorted glasses and mugs — each embossed with a memory.
Stainless steel hums from the side-by-side refrigerator to the stove, coffeemaker, toaster — everything in its place.
Four square plates hang inches apart in a row above the sink. A golden green pear graces the first plant and each subsequent plate loses a bit more of the pear until only the seeds remain, ready to plant the beginnings of a new feast in this quiet kitchen.
When I was young and creating the requisite diorama for school, I took large cotton balls, stretching them until the taught strands made a diaphanous layer of clouds to sit atop a cobalt blue construction paper sky.
Last night, my husband and I stood outside in the balmy aftermath of a spring storm, gazing up as wispy clouds raced by, trying mightily to catch up to the storm raging ahead.
These thin gauzy clouds reflected the light from the city across the river. Puffy and white cottony and soft, transcending time.
Heading out the door, I struggled with a backpack strap. So, it was with great surprise that I lifted my head to see a young fox standing still on the opposite sidewalk.
He eyed me curiously, this young auburn beauty. He wore his youth well — lean haunches, big expressive eyes, a tail not quite as long as his elders.
I often see foxes on my early morning walks. They dart across darkened streets, caught momentarily in the pool of a streetlight as they head home.
But this young fox paused as if in greeting.
Suddenly, the gray cloud cover, gentle rain shower, and long day ahead vanished.
It was just me and the fox welcoming the new day together.